当从前的我与现在的我相见时～

从前的我：我很心痛啊！
现在的我：痛什么？

从前的我：我我～我看到很伤心的东西咯！
现在的我：什么那么伤心？

从前的我：呐～那个咯！
现在的我：哦～一只不要脸的猪，还有一只脸皮厚的狗吗？

从前的我：猪狗？别这样讲人啦！都是我不好啦！
现在的我：哈哈～谁不好你还看不到咯！我同情你咯！

从前的我：同情？为什么同情我？
现在的我：你真的笨到～有哪个人会笨到被人家打破头后，还告诉人家说，没关系～你以后不再打破我的头就可以了？！

从前的我：没有人打破我的头啦！
现在的我：比喻啦～傻瓜！摆明给你看就是你被骗了，你那两个月的忍痛与宽容是白忍的！

从前的我：没有啦！我相信这感觉是真的，我要等她！我会守候一辈子，就算全世界都笑我太天真！我相信着的～
现在的我：你强～你厉害～，我才没有你这么有气了！我看到你就一肚子火啊！是～看起来很伟大很感动，但在你等她的同时你有想过她对你有多残忍吗？她现在过着什么日子吗？开心得很，从自在得很，逍遥得很～说不定两年后送你喜帖恭候你的光临咯！

从前的我：不会的，她不是这种人，她不会的！你不要这样说她～就算这世界上的人都变了，唯独她还是不会变的！
现在的我：＝＝lll～她不会变？那你现在一个人在这里做什么？醒吧！你自己本来都看透的了，整天为她制造另一个形象，你不累吗？告诉你～你醒来后就会知道到底你心目中的她变得有多彻底，换得有多快，跑得有多远！你就算驾F1也追不到了，因为你走前她走后，方向不同怎样追啊？

从前的我：那我倒头就可以了啊！只要能够挽回，我什么都愿意的！真的～
现在的我：想都别想了～就算挽回有怎样，你还闲自己还痛不够吗？人心肉做啊！你那么心软的人斗得过铁石心肠吗？没人要时当你是宝，有人要后当你是草，拾到先哭三声就是了！真心是留给值得的人，欣赏你的人，不是送给不懂欣赏的人糟蹋的！你的心早已被人丢进垃圾桶里，再送进垃圾场，再熔掉了咯！

从前的我：那我希望她现在幸福快乐吧～
现在的我：顾好你自己摆脱～你知道你留下来的烂摊子，我现在还在帮你收拾吗？之前大家都觉得你很好很正常，但你骗得了其他人骗得到你自己（我）吗？有诚意的话就快点来帮我一起收拾你累积下来的功课！==lll

#不管从前的我，现在的我，以后的我～如果爱，我就会全心全意的去爱，当我发现一切都是白费时，该放该弃的就不会再留！两个都是真正的我，不虚假，不做作，敢爱敢恨敢当～！虽然想法变了，或许有一点还是一样的，同样的不爱讲骗话，同时讨厌爱讲骗话的人！

心情日记Vol1

思念～一种无法描述的心痛，
让自己一次又一次的走入失落的场景中，
在理智与感觉的交叉路口中徘徊，
深知道，只要走错一步一切将会无法挽救，
也了解自己不容易摆脱那最大的弱点，
时间是否是唯一能淡化情感的疗方，
如果真的已经没有别的方法了，
是否就要如此让命运宰割呢？

我的答案是～“不”
我不会就这么的轻易的让自己的思绪继续停留在过去，
试过好多次，因为抵挡不了那种突起而来的心酸，
让自己落入失控的状态当中，
觉得自己太差劲，太脆弱了，
能不能坚强一点不要冲动，
也不需要逃避～去接受一切，
去面对一切的不如意与残忍的现实？

结束了～孩子醒来了吧！
你所期望的奇迹就暂时收起来，
好好为你的将来不后悔的努力活下去吧！
这是一种磨练，每一次心痛都是为了让自己更坚强，
让心去习惯一切的不顺心，
既然曾经可以习惯一起共度的日子，
也可以习惯自己一个人生活的日子。

都吐出来了，可以专心做功课了吗？
^^为明天踏出让自己不留遗憾的每一步吧！
把心痛从每个星期到每个月到每一年，
总有一天会忘记也就不会再痛了。

一个寂寞的夜晚，一个还没入眠的我

我在想～为什么自己老爱跟自己作对？
一边告诉自己放下，另一边心又在作怪，
想恨却做不到，想爱却无法得到爱，
为什么明明知道自己是放不下却要一直告诉自己忘记？
难道你觉得累而我不累吗？
你累是因为面对一个没有感情的我，
而我累是因为没有你的生活，
我一天比一天的疲倦，身体也一天比一天的累！
我才知道我是那么的不会照顾自己的健康！
你说得对，没有了你日子还是要过，
但是，心里所受到的伤害，
对你而言～真的在短时间就可以复原了吗？

你不知道我在想你，只因你不爱我，
我明知你不想我，却还爱你，或许我是真的太傻了。
逃避你不是因為害怕去面对你，而是在等待一个未知。
无谋的纠缠，只会让下次相遇带来不必要的难堪。
我需要更多的勇气去等待，去停止一切不必要的举动。

曾经，因為寂寞而錯愛了几回，
当找到了真爱，却注定要无期的等待。
我們可以彼此相爱，卻注定了無法相守。
不是你不夠爱我，只是你不敢肯定，這感觉，是不是最正确的。

如果背叛是一种勇气，那麼接受背叛者需要一种更大的勇气。
前者只需要有足夠的勇敢就可以，又或許只是一時冲动，
而後者考验的卻是宽容的程度，絕非冲动那么简单，需要的唯有時间。
难道对你而言，我的宽容和勇气只换来一句不成熟和没有进步吗？

多少次又多少次，回憶把生活画成一個圆圈，
而我在原地转了无数次，無法解脱甚至还困在里面。
总是希望回到最初相识的地点，如果能夠再一次选择的话，
以为可以做得更好，或者爱得更单纯，
但现实却不如想象的那么容易改变，只怪自己太傻了。

我真的喜欢你，蒙蔽双眼,
以为自己已经忘记，当流下了眼淚,才知道我一直在骗自己。

小宝贝，可以答应我吗？
如果在外面玩累了，受伤了的话记得回来好吗？
我一直在这里等你～
如果我真的可以在茫茫人海中再次遇见你，
我不会再说：“我爱你”
我只想对你说：“在一起”

你永远也看不到我最寂寞時候的样子，
因為只有你不在我身边的時候，才是我最寂寞的时候。
爱上你一点也不累，你的任性而不曾让我学会放弃，
但是你却让我品尝到这世上最累的這世上最累的事情，
那就是要我眼眼睁睁看著自己的心碎了，
还得靠自己的双手一片片的把它粘起來。

如果我说我现在很幸福，其实一点都不感觉到幸福。
如果我说我很快乐，真的会有一件事可以再让我开心一整天了吗？
如果我说我不爱你了，那都是让身边的人安心而说的谎言。
如果我说我不再想你了，但是为何我要躲在一旁哭泣？
如果我说我忘记了，除非我真的失忆了。
但我知道，就算我再如何伪装自己，
在你的面前，我总是骗不了自己，
只好选择不再让自己有机会见到你。

我们在错误的时间相遇，却在正确的时间分开了～
那些以前说过一辈子在一起的话，再想起的时候，才发现我们已经分离了。

＃～还在相爱的人，记得珍惜眼前人～＃

20100111 Outing Jitra Sunset

For Photo Gallery In :
http://danielng3.multiply.com
这次的外景拍摄来得非常突然，现在想起来都还蛮开心，感觉也还很新。
希望下次还有机会在和这帮朋友一起出来，当然下次少不了我的小宝贝咯！她一定会很开心.... =)

特别想感谢：
麒仁，因为他要去校外打油，所以我们才能到外面去看到那么美丽的日落留下美好的回忆。
汉阳，因为他说要拍摄跳起来的感觉，我们才能找到那么好的题材。
銮妮，因为他要去进钱给家人，所以我们才会发现日落的方向正面向我们。
雪莹，因为他要去changloon买车票，所以我们大家才决定出去。
PriscillaYeoh，Because you call me when I was driving, so I slow down the car just saw the sunset in front of us.
加彬，因为前一晚他和我讨论活动的内容，而提到secret recipe，所以我们才会想要一起出去Jitra吃蛋糕。
凌翎还有大家，因为大家到bilik kesihatan练习新春歌曲，所以才会提到那么多有趣的事，包括出去的原因。
Kent，因为你帮我申请sticker，所以我才能驾车来北大，还有带大家出去Jitra。
我的roommate(Jason），因为他帮我去拿sticker，所以我们可以安安心心出去，回来时有UK检查也安全回到宿舍。
再谢谢麒仁多一次（只限汉阳），因为他强逼我出去，所以我才没有错过那么美丽的日落，还有一次意外的外景拍摄。
CJ,师父,美凤,子斌还有86，85年的可爱学长们，因为你们留下来的点点滴滴，所以后辈们才会聚在一起，谢谢大家.....哈哈！
谢谢妈妈，谢谢爸爸，谢谢公公，谢谢婆婆......

注意：排名的顺序是根据故事的源头而决定，千万别太在意排名的先后哦!哈哈哈!

HappY MuM's Day!!

This is the first time I try to find something new to celebrate with my mum and my family members. Before I decide to make a chocolate cheese cake for my mum, I actually want to buy that things I saw in the shopping center (Queensbay) on last sunday(my birthday). I had go to the shopping mall find out that counter, but finally I failed. Because the counter was closed after the weekend. It make me feel down when I heard it. Finally, I make a decision to learn the skill of making cheese cake from my GF. I spend my free time to make the cake at my GF's home. Even the biscuit under the cheese and chocolate was failed to be fixed, but I quite like the test of the chocolate and cheese. So happy that my parent and my grandmother also love it. Tonight, the moon look so beautiful, we (my family's members) have a celebration in the restaurant named Chang kee. I think my mum will remember tonight when is the first time that her son make a chocolate cheese cake to her.


..........NIce oo...........


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My Laptop Skin...!

This my laptop background ...!
Just install the Alienware theme today.
Actually my laptop used windows XP program.
I just install the software to change the skins.
Cause like this more pretty ya!!
If the program got any problem I just restore the system before installed!
I get this theme in the Alienware wedsite
The software also can change the windows media player's skins.
The Tool on the right hand site of the skin is My windows media player.
Look like a Alien's UFO

Date: 10 Okt 2008 Time: 6.36a.m.

ThE DeSiGn Of My GroUp!

Mostly credit by CR (Chyi Ren)

Hehe....

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YAB BiG BiG MooN Cake

There are some rubbish inside the moon cake.....
the basic idea is coming from CR(mE).

The are too many rubbish, we need to decrease the number of rubbish.
make sure the polisterm can close the top of the BiG MooNCake!

The Original surface was done!
Next, we need to add color to the BiG MoOnCake.
Before that, just make sure the mooncake is fine!
Do no have any hit on the mooncake!

The color look like not very well,
because we bought the wrong color to the mooncake!
But i can repair it after drawing!

( 家好月圆庆中秋 ）

In the night, the surface of mooncake look quite nice!
like a Gold MooNcAkE..!


They are my group members!
From the left to the right start from me!
[ CR (group leader), Siew Gaik, Yee Kiat, Ai Jia ( my assistant) , Keen Tarng,
Ah Le, Swee Huey, Wei Ling and Ah Hin(sit Beside me) ]

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TangLonG (灯笼）

Actually this is no include to my group,
but i just help my roommate bryan to draw something on the tanglong!
There are 8 pieces of Tanglong!


He is my roommate Bryan.
the big tanglungs are design by him,
just help him to draw something on the tanglung.


The 1st 6 pieces tanglung I had draw!

all of my credit... but I quite like the right hand site de!
This is the 1st time I use water color to draw bamboo!

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Summerhouse YAB(凉亭）
Honestly.... I have not idea to mae this summerhouse,
so i ask bryan to make the Summerhouse by bamboo,
then I just add value on the small house!


Inside the summerhouse!
the moon and some cloud.....


The summerhouse without the bridge and any adding!
just a simple look!

After adding the bridge and cloud...!


One family members in the summerhouse!
we are doing facemaking inside the summerhouse!

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BiG Door(大门）
Same with the summerhouse, the big door also made by Bryan!


I m drawing the doorplate (广寒宫）


The special entry to go inside our stage!
so many people inside our stage!


The performance was finish, I just capture our stage!

The View Of Pulau Redang ( Lated Post )

NIce Sea View ...!
The water of the sea really clean n clear!

There are some rocks beside the beach of Redang Reef!

A Bridge between Redang Laguna and Redang Reef!

Redang Marine Park's Sea View... Captured By CR!

Today is MummY Birthday... we all (Chyi ren, Chyi Sheng and Chyi Chun) give mummy a birthday kiss, only Chyi Kang not here! Because he was went to his friends home. Mummy look like very happy yooh! Just now is Chyi Sheng kissing Mummy!

Daddy n Mummuy take pic with the Birthday cake ( i bought the cake from Secret
Recipe.) Our pet ... Ricy also here! Ricy really naughty... cause he want to eat the cake without allow. After that we take Ricy go back into the pet's house.

look at the left hand site of the pic, who is waiting to attack mum's birthday cake?
bad pet.... haha!

Travel In Kuala Lumpur!

20 June 2008 - 23 June 2008
We are stay in front of the KL Twin Tower!

Honey n Me want to sleep already, but they still want to play games until mid night!

we are playing poker in hotel's room, people who lose the game must hear the winner's order. If he don't want to follow, must pay money for the other 3 players! Jia Yi is the one who always lose the games! He always like to thinks some difficulty mission for other people, but all the difficult things will turn back to himself! So funny is it?

Big Apple Donuts .... This is only RM2 per piece, we bought 12 piece in a box and there are only RM 17 only! Have 12 different taste of donuts! all of the donuts taste is nice, but I quite like to eat the 3 of chocolate one!

We Having Lunch In 3JC 三间庄. Tonight 10pm... we will go to Terengganu by bus in Pudu Bus Station. we still have so much free time before we go to bus station. After we finish our lunch, we go to Sungai Wang shopping center and also times square shopping center. 4-6pm... we spend our time to watching movie in times square's GSC Cinema. The movie name is "Get Smart".
Gary was the VIP for KimGary Hong Kong Chinese's restaurant in the day!
KimGary was having a promotion for their Kim's card!
Whose had register for their kimcard member, they will have chance to get the lucky draw for HOng Kong 3 days trip n Disneyland Ticket for 2 person.

19/06/2008 Holidays Trip Day One In GentinG HighlanD

We are on the way go to Genting Highland, Yi Cheng's face look like very tired.

This the first day of our trip, there will so many happy things happened in the coming days.

Kean Yong, Sok Wah and Jia Yi look like very Bored, because they can't slept well in the bus.
The auntie beside them always talked in the bus, this is also the one of the cause had affect them.
I remember they tell me that, the auntie always talk about her son in the!

khai Song was sleeping in the bus.

Yi Cheng ... Faster fall in to your dream!

Kean Yong is blocking for my camera capture.

Just now ... we are waiting for the hotel check in.
Yc n me were captured on the outside of firstworld hotel.

After that ... we are having dinner at McDonald.
This is my first meal in Genting. ( BIG BREAKFAST )


They are my friends Kean Yong n Sok Wah.
both of us still waiting for the hotel check-in time in 2 p.m.


There Are some small build in Firstworld

Clock Tower

Smaller Twin Tower

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Smaller Freedom Queen

( YC n CR )We are having fun in Genting Theme park

This is a small map for the Genting Theme Park.

1. We are on the Thrill Rides no.23 Flume Ride.

On the way moving up.

The weather is sunny .... omg or our transport wood is being falling down.
we are so nervous now....Ahhhhh!

A nice view when we are on the transport wood.

look like very dirty now.... haha!

The transport way of Flume Ride.

The next park is so high and feel difficulty.


2. We are on the Thrill Rides no.22 Rolling Thunder ( Mine Train )

Oh yeah... our face is dripping wet now.We are the most early one to sit this train.
Even through ... there are only 2 people on the train.
We have get ready to face the next difficult park.


3. We are on the Family Rides no.10 Mini Train.

Look at Yi Cheng ... she is concentrate to plan the next station where we have to go.
Hehe .... YC look so cute ooo!

Still thinking now.
Don't disturb me.... =b

Where you want to go later?
I'm waiting for you.

no need to go any place .... just stay on the train until mid night!
ha ha ... is it a good idea?

Don't think to much .... let us take a photo first okie?
smile always ... qikcak
nice shot....!

Look at here.... there are so many fish in the poor.


4. We are on the Family Rides no.6 Antique Car.

My driver PYC .
Poh :Hallo ... Mr. Ng .
Where you want to go?

Ng : I want to go back Penang now can?
Poh : Sorry ... I only can take you go around the theme park
Ng : Ow... Nevermind.... you just drive it.

hehe ...

OMG .... our car is being dash with an other car in front of....

Ooooo.... stop the car !
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taking some rest beside a small waterfall.

the water is cold ....

Captured with the cars first just went for the next station.


5. We are on the Family Rides no.7 Boating

There are a few of photo we have capture on the boat.



6. We are on the Thrill Rides no.27 Bumper Boat

There are only 7 boats can work at the same time.
YC n Me is playing the boat with a group of indian guys and gals.

7. We are on the Thrill Rides no.28 Flying Dragon.

8. We are on the Thrill Rides no.20 Super Toboggan

People who want to attend the super toboggan, they must be fix for the required :
Min. Height : 122 cm
Min. Weight : 35 kg
Max. Weight : 70 kg

If you just look at the photo, you will just feel that we are so happy.
But ... there was some accident happened on the way of toboggan running.
A person who is in front of us was stopped on the mid road. The coming of 4-5 person was dash against to the person who is in the front. Yc was hit by me, and I was hit by someone who is behind me. Both of us was injured, but not too serious.

9. We are on the Thrill Rides no.19 Spinner.

This time .... Yc didn't accompany me, I'm going to play alone!
Actually... I didn't afraid before, but....
When the games was started.
?????????????????????????
I can't believe that.... I will also be giddy a bit.
finally ... the dizzy feeling had stop, and I also feel better already!